Not Feeling It

The beautiful mountains of Finiq Albania

I figured out the reasons why I haven't felt settled and can't do two months here.

1) I'm not feeling joy cooking for people I don't see. Food is my love language and I feel like I'm on an assembly line. 20 muffins and 20 egg bites every morning for the hotel guests. Make the batter for the next day's bake, clean the kitchen. Make 3 kinds of crostata for Farm Tours. Wash dishes, clean kitchen.Snore.

2) I really don't like sharing a bathroom with people. I scrubbed it down with bleach water and bought a new shower curtain because that one was like the Donald Trump of shower curtains. There was a towel that was used as the bathmat but no-one hung it up to dry. It was starting to become sentient from everyone DNA getting ingrained in it. I picked it up with tongs and washed it in the hottest water possible. Some people shed hairs like German Shepherds having their summer blow so the drain backs up and I'm not about to reach in there to clean the hair trap. I will bathe outside with a hose before I do that.

3)it seems petty to leave because I get no pleasure from cooking here and people leave the bathroom floor wet, but my time is precious and I need to be happy.